My life with ghosts (part two)…

The Confirmation and Other Stories of Dreams, Ghosts, and Unusual Events

I must preface this story by interjecting a note about my dreams, as
well as my beliefs about the paranormal.

I have always had incredibly vivid and creative dreams which I can
almost always recount. They are often saga-like, whether they be in the form of operas, ballets, theater, musical pieces, or movies, all of which I conjure up during my sleep. Sometimes I am conducting a symphony and often, I can still hear the music as I awaken. And occasionally, I write in my dreams. My dreams are colorful and multi-layered, resembling moving paintings often with Surrealistic or Cubist-like imagery. I travel in my dreams. I fly in my dreams. My dreams are frightening, exhilarating, and at times, they simply are, serving as a sieve for all the creativity around me that has inspired me and flowed through me throughout my entire life.
What has changed then about my dreams since living in “the house” is not their intensity, but rather, their subject…Ghosts.
I don’t typically dream about such things and I’d like to think that my recent dreams full of apparitions are simply the result of the power of suggestion—thoughts that have evolved from perusing the things once belonging to those who are long dead.

My view of the paranormal has always been a dubious one. But still, I guess you could say I have psychic tendencies. As long as can remember, I have been able to sense who is calling me on the phone when it rings. I know when a squirrel is about to run in front of the car, and sometimes I can sense when there is an accident up ahead and I’ll instinctively put my foot to the brake. Here’s an example of a recent “psychic” event. We were driving down a street past a golf course when it suddenly occurred to me that I should roll up my window—a golf ball might hit me. What a curious thought! But only an instant later, a ball whizzed in front of our car and struck the vehicle next to us. Strange. Even so, these “events” do not seem too extraordinary.
My connections with the paranormal have been tenuous at best. When I was a child, my friends and I terrified ourselves while playing with the Ouija board, with the planchette seemingly taking over and moving of its own free will under our hands. As a young adult in my in my early twenties, I read a book that my mother had recommended which documented people’s accounts of life after death—white light at the end of the tunnel kind of stories. I thought it was interesting but I went no further with the topic. And a sidebar here–as far as astrology is concerned, I have read horoscopes for amusement, but I believe them only if I approve of their projections for my future.
In other words, this paranormal stuff is not really my cup of tea.
But upon the death of my father-in-law, Harold, strange things began to happen…

During the seven months following Harold’s death and before we had moved into his house, our children, who were just two years old at the time, began relate to us incidences that chilled us.
With his health rapidly failing, Harold had stayed with us in our duplex during the last week of his life. He spent much of that time sitting in our living room in his favorite chair, which we had brought over from the sitting room of his house. Our children would sometimes go to his side and talk with him, or they would play on the floor nearby. After one week of this, we took him to the hospital, where he died.
Despite his passing, my children’s play continued. Death was a large abstract to them and I don’t think its ramifications registered with them. Or so I thought. Our twins begin to claim, in their earnest little voices, that following his death, Harold, or “Danda” as they called him, began coming to visit. As they often did at that age, they spoke simultaneously, telling their stories independently, but in unison. And there was no prompting on our part. They told us how Danda would sit in the big chair by the lamp in the living room, the same spot where he had sat the week before his death. He would watch them play and chat with them. They had complete belief that their grandfather had been there. We did not know what to think.
And it was during this time that I had my own first bizarre experience. Following Harold’s death, Lee and I had begun the cleaning and repair on his house necessary to make it habitable. While one of us watched our children, the other worked over at his house. We shuttled back and forth like this between our duplex and Harold’s house for months.
The “event” happened one day following weeks of working furiously at packing Harold’s books, cleaning and scraping walls, and priming and painting. I was taking a moment to pause and glance around the living room at my progress. I happen to be standing in the doorway that separated the living room from the hall–the very spot where Harold often had stood to say goodbye to us when we would visit, for he was too weak to escort us to the front door. Suddenly, I heard a voice next to my ear, so loud that it made me jump. “Suzy,” the voice said simply. I knew immediately it was Harold.
This would be just the beginning of a series of eerie events that we would experience over the next many years, occurrences for which we could never be able to logically explain. So many curious happenings and bizarre dreams, that my husband and I have been left baffled, even frightened.
Sometimes these events happen during that transition time between sleep and awakedness. Other times things have occurred while we were fully alert and functioning. And we begin to see a pattern that correlates with our work in the attic and basement–the more we cleared out and organized the two spaces, the more the paranormal happenings took place.
Over the years, I have documented these strange experiences whenever they occurred–a way of making them seem less intimidating I suppose. I will now attempt to put my notes to paper in chronological order, still in their original loosely written form. Some occurrences are dreams, while others are actual events. All took place over an eight year period. I hesitate to even write these words while sitting here alone in “the house,” but it is the afternoon and most of the bizarre events have taken place in the middle of the night. The mystery is, how should I view that which I am about to relate to you…

My life with ghosts…

This is my very first post.

I thought with Halloween approaching, it would be an appropriate time to share my real life stories of having lived in a haunted house. Despite having been 5 1/2 years since I moved from there, what I went through still puzzles me and sometimes disturbs me.  I am sharing the documentation of my experiences that I made at the time, beginning with the backstory of  how it came to be that I lived a place where these events were even  possible. This first installment is titled “The House.” The ghost stories will follow soon…

The House

During the late moments of the day, when the light is soft and glowing, a time in filmmaking that is so special that it is referred to as the “magic hour,” I stand in my dining room and look to my right. There, I see the leafy view outside the kitchen window of what was once Uncle Martin’s world, a place where he quietly nurtured to full life his garden of roses. But over the many decades since, a bamboo thicket has won out, destroying almost all signs of the red flowers, and the tall, thin trees that bend easily in the wind are now my children’s world.

If I turn slightly, I will find standing before me Mrs. Warner’s china cabinet that wearily displays various old objects from her travels to ancient places, each item rich with its own story. And if I look towards the living room and beyond, I can see into the distant porch room, a room that was once Gretchen’s, and which has now become my own special place for quiet thoughts and creative tasks.

It is at this instant that an enchanted thing happens. The house comes to life. Its force, in the shape of a complicated interaction of sparkling light and faint shadows, flows through the rooms and I’m almost sure, through me.

But let me back up and tell you the story of this house and of its many inhabitants throughout its numerous years…

The house had made its way through three generations of my husband’s family and following the death of my father-in-law, Harold, it landed squarely in our laps. A gift, yes. But a curse as well. For the house was packed with junk. From the coal-littered basement floor all the way up to its spidery attic’s raftered heights, there was barely a space within which one could move. It quickly became obvious that for sixty years, every previous family member had left their mark in the shape of their things. And apparently, it was now our problem to remedy.

But I sensed that underneath all the clutter there had once been a charm to the place and I was determined to bring it back. The first time my mother came to visit, before dementia had completely stolen her mind, she exclaimed as we drove up: Why, its a storybook house! It does have that innocent aura with its red brick, white trim, a green roof with matching green door, and making it unique from all the other houses on our street, its three gables. It was partly due to those three gables that my husband’s grandmother, Eloise, had first chosen the house back in the 1940s following an exhausting search for the perfect home.

So I persevered. I was on a quest to make the house our own “perfect home.” My first line of attack was against the ocean of books. Thousands of them, on every level of the house, dealing with every imaginable topic, in all different shapes from the fascinating antique volumes held together with embossed leather bindings, to the more recent cheap fiction paperbacks. In their totality (at my estimation, at least 6000), the books seemed an incarnation of all the varied lives that had previously called this three-gabled house their home throughout the passing decades.

During this book sorting, endurance task from hell phase of my life, (which, by the way, took four months just to deal with the books on the main level of the house), I came across an antique edition of Tennysons Poetical Works” from the late 1800’s. When I first held it, I tentatively turned through its gilded pages, for I felt such a presence emerging from the book that I hesitated at invading anothers world. Inserted in a passage from Guinevere,I discovered a small white card. Hand-written in ink in beautiful cursive penmanship were the words Souvenir-Saturday night. Feb.-13.97,” underneath which were a series of intertwining initials inscribed in a heart-shaped configuration. Stitched to the card with black thread was a small pressed flower, so ancient it was hard to determine its type but I guessed it to be a violet.

February 13, 1897. The day before Valentines. Suddenly, time had done a reversal and I found myself spying on a very private moment that had occurred 108 years before. One special night in one persons life, long lost, long dead. My body felt curious, caught between my ordinary, task-laden life and this mysterious, romantic moment in the past, one so powerful that it had driven the owner of the book to immortalize it. What had happened that evening?

This would prove to be just one of many such moments, full of magic borrowed from the dead, that I would experience over the next many years during our time living in what I have come to refer to simply as “The House.”

As we continued cleaning, several things occurred. First, with every excursion to the attic or basement, my horror grew at the job ahead. Secondly, as my brain became more focused, I was finally able to discern individual objects rather than simply massive heaps of junk. And finally, we became aware of the numerous trunks and cabinets and satchels scattered about, including five trunks in the attic and two in the basement. Each time we pried open one of these repositories, we’d discover it filled to the brim with items once belonging to one or more of the house’s previous inhabitants.

Here, for clarity’s sake, is a brief summary of the varied souls that this place once held. The very first person to live in our house was the contractor who, back in the 1940’s, originally built the house as well as many of the other houses on our street. Then there was Barney and Eloise along with their son, Harold. Once grown, Harold married Gretchen and they lived, along with their son, Lee (my husband), with Barney and Eloise. Various other relatives passed through as well: Lessie (Barney’s mother and Lee’s great-grandmother) lived here for brief period while she attended a school for the blind; Uncle Martin, Barney’s brother and editor for the Atlanta Journal and Constitution, lived here for a number of years; and there were many cousins that came and went. Our home was almost always full, and as we were about to discover, they all left their mark in various forms, both tangible and intangible.

Over time, my original purpose of cleaning and straightening the house was slowly joined by an overwhelming desire to know exactly what lives were entombed here and what their stories might be. Hence began what I nicknamed “The Great Trunk Hunt.” We set out to tackle the trunks (along with all the cabinets, boxes, satchels, and any other form of vessel a particular person had chosen to hide away their treasured belongings) from which we wrestled their decades-old secrets.

We approached the job like a couple of amateur archaeologists. Once locating a trunk or some other such repository, we’d slowly raise the lid, wary of what might jump out, careful not to breathe its foul air from ages ago. Its contents would then be examined, piece by piece. We’d make a mental note of the original owners, all dead. A sad job. An item or two might be removed to join us in our living space–a letter opener, a pocket watch, coins and stamps–but the rest of the things would be returned to their crypt, to remain there for who knows how many more years. I think it was at this point that I became fully became aware that what we were dealing with was not a simple cleaning/purging/fixin’ a house up kind of thing. No, we had landed in a place caught in another time. And soon, we’d discover that otherworldly occurrences in “The House” were not completely out of the realm of possibility…